Fuck guys, I didn't sleep (or shower) last night and today I was gardening for like three hours straight today, and I was almost done, when suddenly sleep deprivation made me stupid enough to use the pickaxe right where the middle of the incoming water pipe of the whole damn house is. Now I look and smell like I just ran a marathon in the mud and I have no way to shower and I am considering which of my neighbors will be the less inconvenienced if I beg for a few buckets of water so I don't look completely pathetic tomorrow when my plumber friend comes to attempt to fix it and I bet I won't be able to sleep tonight until he confirms it's not a huge tragedy which actually I'm sure it is oh god this shit is gonna be so expensive to fix, for a mistake so dumb, I'll be ashamed for the rest of my life I committed it, and immediately reminded of other terrible mistakes I made in the past as I remember it, then I will consider all the mistakes yet to come, and I will cry and won't be able to sleep and maybe make more mistakes.