I'm addicted to methamphetamine. I spend practically all of my time crying and shooting up. I have also developed gingivitis and I am worried that my teeth will soon fall out. I like to pretend that I don't have a problem when I'm in public. I avoid everybody, and I seem expressionless. I have no idea how this happened, it went from me doing it once a month, to once a week, to about 2-3 times a day. I hate myself for it.

I am 24 and I have never had a girlfriend, nor have I kissed or done anything sexual. The only girl I ever loved turned me down when I was 15 and I could never date anybody else. She is my best friend, and she has a new boyfriend every week, yet she keeps turning me down. I love her, but when I see her with others I feel as if my heart has been dropped from a ten story building. Why can't I just be happy for her?