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I do have somebody I can talk to. The girl I mentioned harms herself by cutting her wrist, we both talk about our problems together. I have tried to quit. In march I went two weeks without meth... The first four days were absolute torture but then I suddenly felt no desire to take meth again. Gradually and gradually though I kept getting more depressed and felt more anxiety and I couldn't take it anymore. I tried smoking weed which was a good alternative, but I couldn't stand the intoxicating effect it had. The thing with amphetamine is that it not only gets you high, it actually makes your cognitive abilities even stronger... Which makes addiction seem acceptable, but what people don't mention is the crash. When the high is over it leaves you in an extremely depressed and unmotivated state of mind, which I usually avoid by taking even more amphetamine. Long story short, after my two weeks of sobriety I couldn't handle it anymore. I shot up dextroamphetamine and then masturbated for hours, when I crashed I bought a gram of crystal meth.

I just finished chasing a 16th on some tinfoil. I feel awful for giving into my addiction, although part of me doesn't give a shit because I am really high right now. I'm sorry for whining about my problem, VIPPERS. I'm just trying to drown my sorrows in VIP quality.